...but you have to pick only a few stuff. Drama of my life. I'm starting to get bored with my own feelings and whining.
I need discipline. I've never, ever been good at it. Not for long.
Yesterday I was at the store to buy bread. Close to where we live, there is a guesthouse. Tourists come to stay there all year round. While I was waiting in line, a tourist woman approached the shop assistant. The shop assistant doesn't know English well and she asked for my help. I translated for her. As I was approaching the foreign woman I felt my ears like they were on fire.
I knew in that moment that my face was red, but I translated anyway. I felt awesome for being of help. At the same time, it sucks to realize that my shyness is at the same level as when I was a child.
When I was in college I was hiking pretty often and went out to dance 3 nights a week. During that time I got really good at controlling the redness.
But for a very long time now I kept myself away from real social interaction and I start to feel the disadvantages.
I always hated how my face gets red when someone talks to me. Mugur liked it when we met though... he was saying I'm like Hinata (back then I had no idea who this Hinata is). So yeah... I'm starting to feel a need for social interaction.
The craving-for-loneliness phase is at its end.
At the same time, Gemma is going through a new phase too. A few days ago she suddenly started to WANT my permanent presence. I can't even go to the bathroom without her starting to cry.
And she wants to be hold all the time. I try to find a balance and give her the affection she needs without spoiling her.
Tricky stuff. At the same time, she started to show affection herself, a thing she didn't do much until now. She puts her arms around me, she kisses me, and it feels so awesome when your baby expresses her love for you! She can be very annoying at times, but I know one day I'll miss all this, so I am patient. ^_^ She also learns new words now. Today she said "goga", the word I use for insect. It sounded more like "gaga", but she'll get it right eventually. ^_^
Professionally, I'm in an all-kinds-of-blocks phase. Meh. I will just do what I always do and go with the flow. Right now I wish to legalize this activity so I can go to artisan fairs. It would be amazing to travel through the country like that, this weekend at a fair in a city, next weekend in another one. Of course, reality will hit me hard when I'll start to pay taxes and shit, but until then I'll dream on.
Right now I wish to work on a few more zodiac themed pieces. I already have the sketches, I just need to find the time.
I quit on translating "Nemuritorii". It's just too time consuming and I feel that even if I give my all, I can't keep the same feeling in English. So I will just post other kinds of art related to that on that account. Dunno when... Oh, well...
I'm in an awkward place right now. Very confused about the future (professionally speaking). I am sure it will be OK though. It always is. ^_^
And as always, anime helps me a lot when I'm in a bad mood! Have you seen the last 2-3 Naruto episodes? OMG I feel butterflies when I think about them! So much epicness. I wish we would read the manga, but Mugur feels like reading the manga ruins the anime, because you know when they add something in the anime and it sucks. Those filler moments. You know what I mean.
Also, we watch the Football championship. Mugur doesn't watch football in general, but he loves the World and European Championships. And sometimes I watch the games with him too, if it's interesting. And this year is full of surprises! He is a big fan of Netherlands. So we only had reasons for joy. ^_^ And I must say I was surprised by the Iranian team and cheered for them!
Do you watch the championship? Who are you cheering for?